And the year slides onward.....

I realized yesterday that the days were getting shorter, the tans getting deeper, the grass deader (baking sin + no rain = dead grass) and the summer was slipping away. Its almost the end of July , and since I spend all my work life working feverishly at planning next week next month next year I seem to always be missing now. Vacation looks to be slim thus year with too much work at the wrong time so it looks like I will be spending the majority of my summer commuting and traveling for work.

Life's too short to let it slip by. Time to try to focus on the family and having a little fun before its 20 below again :)

Time to slip into summer mode, even if I am a month too late.......

Wow, THAT was a long time

Three years and three months since my last blog post - I might set the record for the worlds worst blogger! Times have changed a lot since my last post, job changes for me and SWMBO, kids growing up, me getting older (and balder). Spending all my time zipping back and forth across the country these days, and it is starting to get old. Thank God I travel with a couple of collegues that I really like, otherwise this would be too much to handle. Hopefully it is all worth it in the end - the last personal sacrifice I made for the better of the career/family long term (moving to Ontario) ended up being a bit of a bust. Some would say it spawned this next bigger - better role, but my glass half empty mood today tells me otherwise. 6 years of design, implement, and improve have ended up reduced to exactly where they were in 2006 in one swoop of fate. Hopefully everything works out in the end and some of my hard work is not forgotten.

I miss my kids, I miss my wife, I miss my own crappy little house with all its required repairs.

Off to the gym to try to run away some of my blahs. Hopefully it works!

I need a vacation. Everyone I work with is either going on, or has been on (twice in the case of my admin assistant) a winter vacation. I am tired, I am worn out, and unfortunately I am also poor. So I am stuck here. I guess it could be worse, I could be back home in the -30 nasty weather. But I still need a vacation.

I need to win a lottery.

Why do I do this?

Cleaned up my desk drawer at work today. Came across on old Biovail envelope clipped closed. Inside was the reminder of the worst days of my life. not sure why I do this stuff to myself, but instead of holding onto happy reminders I have kept the unused return portion of my airport shuttle that I never ended up needing. I kept my full coffee punch card that is good for a free coffee at Stollery that I will never get to use. I kept the East Side Mario's receipt for the dinner that Sharon and I had the night Kaity died. I kept the last cash advance paperwork we got from the social worker.

My day was going fine, now it's not. For a perfect life I am very sad.

It beginning to look a lot like Christmas......................

Well not really, but we are getting close. Only another 37 days till we head back home for our annual cross country "griswald run" (I might be dating myself with the '80's movie reference). I hear there is snow back home, but here it is just a pissing rain that has made me sick and makes me think I REALLY shouldnt have ridden my bike in today.

I just started the Christmas shopping today - well OK, it was stuff for the MapleLeaf Christmas party this weekend that I am dreading, but it was still shopping. Not much else to say except that work continues to be the same old same old, and I am pretty sure that the $$ they spent to move me here 2 years ago was wasted but maybe next year right?

Another night of Mr. Mom awaits (Sharon is at work) so I can look forward to a crying baby, two fighting tweens (or whatever they are called now) and a headache the size of a bus.

Oy.

First one

Thought I would check this out - never did one of these before. Dont really have much to say today, except that once again I am reminded how much disdain I have for people in general. I miss my "old" simple life.